feeling much better today. it might have been the long good real conversation last night. it might have been the sleep, or the fact that i ate three meals yesterday. it might have been the lunch of oysters and arugula/corn/beet salad today.
probably it's that i've found a place inside my convoluted and self-torturing mind where i can just rest and breathe for a minute and not worry about what is going to happen next. just know that the world is full of love and that i don't have to know anything right now.
random zen-like day. what a gift. no questions, baby, i'm just going with it...