1. i am struggling a bit, i am tired in my heart and thinking of the unfairness of things too often.
2. there is a lot of distance right now in places where i don't want it.
i think these two things are working to perpetuate one another.
i want to be certain and all that stuff, resolute and strong. but when i feel sad and when people i care about are feeling sad. sometimes i don't know what else to do besides gather to me the people i love. when that is not possible i feel lost.